Wednesday, 29 January 2014


So here we are again another week down, now i have done a video update on this week which goes into more depth and this will be posted tomorrow and uploaded on my channel then too! But I will continue to write updates to for my non subscribers!(which if you are on YouTube please like and subscribe you wont regret it!!!;p)!!

SO this week has been pretty busy with work and finishing off last minute bits and bobs of art, and illustration and also sorting out my new channel and my old channel. I have had a lot of make up enquiries but currently not able to fulfill them at the point of my pregnancy. So I am kind of on a 'half' maternity leave!!

I have felt more positive this week than last, if you watched my vlog of my 31 week update, you would have ready about how I am really struggling with my mood and lack of bond with baby at this present time, and sadly rather angry and resentful towards people who are feeling a bond with their unborn babies just wishing that I could feel the same. And the response to that video was amazing and people have really reassured me that it is totally normal and that I have nothing to worry about. I shall go into this a bit more on my vlog, which will be live tomorrow, but my main focus is with myself and our baby and not worrying or focusing on others and how they are and not comparing. 

Health wise not been great, bloods are all over the place and back to the rind and grind of hospitals just like before I was pregnant!! But its ok I am use to it, I guess I enjoyed and got too use to the lovely break I had during the 2nd trimester!!
I also had my baby shower that was amazing!!! Vlog to follow that too. All videos mentioned are coming this week!!
Now some of you may know how passionate I am about attachment parenting which breastfeeding is a huge part of and how I so desperately and firmly believe I will do. However I am starting to get sick of the constant negative spin people are putting on it for me. Which seems to be a theme of the week!!
I have also got another vlog coming or 'vlog mega rant' on breastfeeding!!! 
(BEFORE I CONTINUE I A NOT BASHING FORMULA!! I fully understand and except peoples choice, I DO NOT believe formula is a bad thing or anything or the sort just to make that clear)

 Responses such as -
"You probably wont take to it or there wont be a latch"
"Oh trust me, you will be far to tired to get past the 2nd week, you will be reaching for that bottle, it will make your life soooo much easier"
"if you want a proper routine then stick him on formula!!"

Ok in answer to response one, as soon as I have had the baby, I am being transferred to cottage hospital midwife led unit, that specialises in breastfeeding establishment and extra postnatal care. The number one reason for me going there (for what could be anything up to 10 days though I very much doubt it will be that long at all!) is to establish a good, pain free latch and to be able to leave confident that I can effectively and exclusively breastfeed. My midwife is 110% backing me on this and so happy with my positive decision to do this. If there is any tongue tie issues that can be sorted there and if there are other issues then fine I have to accept that. 

On the answer to the second, breastfeeding is tiring I am aware of that, but hundreds of millions of women do it, in countries where access to formula isn't there!! I do not personally, and this is my choice, want to take the easy way out but putting him on formula just so I can sleep better. I have never taken the easy route, I have always taken what I feel to be the right route and so not prepared to start that now. I am aware that during growth spurts they can feed every hour even! I have seen friends crying because they feel their baby is constantly on them, feel totally exhausted and drained, and did they ever stop, NO they kept going, because babies feed supply on demand so if they need more milk, a mother gives it. 
And in regards to number three, well I same as answer two I guess!!
 A good friend today lent me a beautifully illustrated book, that I now plan to buy and pass to others called The Food Of Love by Kate Evans in which she describes how in non western societies, feeding is not and should not be considered as private when there is a baby to feed, women discreetly feed n public when their baby needs feeding. She states women there do not need to learnt how to breastfeed as they see it all around them, and myself coming from Mexico, I totally agree. she states that here in the west, our tribal support net work has almost vanished, Breasts here are sexy. bottle feeding is pushed as being easier and thus babies miss out. Again I am NOT slating  women who felt they could not feed due to adequate support, a tongue or other health issues including medication dependency that is not suitable for breastfeeding. It is ones personal choice, what saddens me and what is my point is the lack of support, and peoples choices to take the easier route. I waited until I was 30 to have a baby because I KNOW its going to hard work, but also incredibly rewarding.

So there was my rant which again I shall have a vlog about too!!

Ok i shall leave you with a bump shoot and weekly stats!! And yes again I am going on about vlog, but it will be there tomorrow!! 
Also those on Google+ though I do not use it much, feel free to add me on my new one that is linked for my new vlog channel!! The other one (the one link to here, is still very active:) )

How far along? 32+5 weeks

Total weight gain: I lost a lot since christmas mainly because I had a horrible chest infection and flu all in one that lasted 2 weeks!I think I have gained a bit back but unfortunately not what I lost.
Maternity clothes? All the same, a few tops and leggings, at the time I don't feel the need to by more so close to due date but rather managing with what I have!!
 Stretch marks? no! I thought I would get some but not at the moment! 
Sleep: struggling this week with it still, baby very active, worlds worst heartburn and also a terrible pain in my pancreatic region which I am still undergoing tests, Amylase is still very high so it remains a worrying mystery!!
What I miss: Alcohol, I know its terribly to say but the odd cigarette, going on rides like Alton Towers, running around. I also not miss being to breath properly and sit for long periods of time!!
Movement:at this stage his movement is vital to knowing how well he is doing. And he is extremely active!! He is even keeping my husband up, and also kicking tea out of my hands!!
Labor signs: no
Symptoms: Reflux that is terrible,shortness of breath, emotional, other medical issues back, that's about it!!
Wedding rings on or off? on
Cravings: never had any cravings,but really lost my appitite for all food unless is sweet or cooked for me! My hunger was constant at first and now its not:( I eat a lot of yogurt, but Its more because its all I fancy eating and its sweet rather than craving it.
Food Aversions: Still hot chocolate, my tea now has to be really strong, certain savory items, so all still the same.

Mood: I am all over the place!!One day ok and one day not so much!But it is better:)

Tuesday, 21 January 2014


Some little bits on maternity style!! I feel like I have totally neglected this part of my blog but probably because I have made no effort what so ever!! I do plan to do a video on maternity style and tips on what you really should be doing when buying maternity clothes!! First off all it is important to feel good during pregnancy, and looking good helps you feel good! Its a time when body changes so much and can give you such mixed feelings so with a few style tips, you may be able to feel so much more blooming! 
So here is my top 5 tips for maternity style and clothing and also my outfit of the day!

Tip 1 - Buy a decent bra! INVEST!! seriously invest in a good and decent bra. Your boobs will seriously grow and continue to throughout you pregnancy, and there is nothing that will make you feel more miserable that not having a supportive and decent bra!!I have the Emma Jane Maternity bra and it is amazing and also borrowed some off a friends brought at Debenhams! Yes they are more costly but well worth the money!!

Tip 2 - Wear empire line tops and dresses!! It is where the seam comes underneath the bust! Most maternity tops are like it but a lot of ordinary tops and dress are like it too and they look so pretty!!

Tip 3 - Leggings!! These have been life saving for me and so so comfy!! I recommend H and M for cheap, quality ones, or Noppies brand who do adjustable sides so the leggings adjust to your bump! You can team leggings with so much!!

Tip 4 - Keep it simple so its not too costly, and just accessorize! The top that I am wearing is also from H and M and its very simple and comfy, however I have teamed with with a blazer, jeans, or pretty scarfs like here and leather boots to give a polished look!!

Tip 5 - Maternity clothes are NOT a waste of money, If you plan to have more children they can be kept, but if anything 9, months though it does go fast, can also be quite slow when your not feeling comfortable!! Just a few leggings, a pair of jeans (Asos maternity do some fab ones!) a couple of jersey tops and your favorite accessories may be enough!!

And here is my outfit of the day! Not going far so just a simple jersey, with bright scarf! My hair dryer broke to was waiting for hair to dry before I put it in a top not!

Have a good day:)


Thursday, 9 January 2014


 WOW ok so I am very very very behind on my blog posts!! Well it has been Christmas and I have also been pretty unwell.

I wont bore you with too much updates, all has been well and pretty much the same as since week 23. Ofcourse I have got bigger and really struggled with pain in my back. I did find myself in hospital a few times with a UTI, and also various other issues. 

But all in all things have progressed well and I shall move straight on to my 30 week update!! I cant believe I am 30 weeks already!!

So this week I had my GTT test to see if i might have or be developing gestational diabetes. I have been incredibly ill this week with both the flu and a chest infection despite having the flu jab. It left me with a horrible fever and the hot flushes still wont seem to go away, hardly able to eat much or keep much down, and generally feeling very weak. Not to mention struggling with my constantly low potassium, and a nasty nasty cough to go with it that I am sure is powerful enough to break a rib!! I am on the mend however and feeling better but its very slow. We went to London with friends on the 2nd of Jan and I am sure I caught it then!! 

Anyway back to the test, I had to starve from 10,pm the night before and go in for 3 different blood tests after every hour, oh and after the first drink a bottle of lucozade in 5 mins!! Feeling ill on top of that was not nice! In between that time I had my growth scan. Baby Mackin is measuring as very small, with little short legs which has to be genetic my husband and I are both small! But he also has a small little belly and is right below the low percentile line on the chart. He is in proportion though so that is good! The consultant is not too concerned and many mums have told me not to listened to much to the growth scans and charts and soooo many people I know get told they are having a small baby and end up with a large baby!! The main worry/issue from it really was that I unfortunately I have not been able to keep my weight up which at this stage should be a little bit higher.Which is why they suspect him to be so small around his belly. There are some creatinine in my blood meaning somewhere my body is burning muscle not fat. I am built very high muscle due to a lot of sports in the past which is why I didn't notice the weight loss sooner. Its not much in the blood or drastic but must be stopped now as it could also effect my kidneys so weather I like it or not I have to try and gain some more fat even though I feel I have plenty already. I am defo not underweight anymore I am sure. I didn't realize but the baby takes from the fat from your body NOT what you eat. Either way I am not worried about the scan, as he looked fine and its not as if Chris and I are large people!!

So that was that! Rather brief but I shall leave you with a quick summery below.
Ohh also we have decided to use cloth nappies! So once I have set up my YouTube channel linked to this blog, I shall be going cloth tutorials and information videos too. And tomorrow doing a whole post about them for those mums who are confused by it all as I most certainly was!!

Here are some photos. Oh and he is presenting as Frank Breech like this. How he is comfy I do not know!!

Below is I think 25 weeks
 and now 30 weeks!! In all my husbands sports gear!!lol

How far along? 30 weeks

Total weight gain: I had gained a lot about a stone and a half at first but seems I have lost quite a bit off that. But certainly not back to my pre pregnancy weight
Maternity clothes? Same as before,managed to wear more flattering cloths over Christmas, but now I am being rather plain and boring in leggings and hoodie! Its far too cold to dress in the nice clothes I have and nothing else fits!!At this stage I don't see the point in buying more maternity clothes.
 Stretch marks? no! I thought I would get some but not at the moment! 
Sleep: struggling this week with it as I have been so ill, but they gave me Codeine so that has helped!!
What I miss: Alcohol, I know its terribly to say but the odd cigarette, going on rides like Alton Towers, running around. 
Movement:at this stage his movement is vital to knowing how well he is doing. I make sure I feel a least 10 a day but its always constant.
Labor signs: no
Symptoms: Reflux that is terrible,bleeding, shortness of breath, emotional!!
Wedding rings on or off? off some days and on on others!
Cravings: non but really lost my appitite for all food unless is sweet or cooked for me! My hunger was constant at first and now its not:(
Food Aversions: Still hot chocolate, my tea now has to be really strong, certain savory items.
Mood: I am all over the place!!One day ok and one day not so much!

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