Tuesday, 26 November 2013

A typical Military struggle - Missing home (LONG POST!!)

Well by home I mean my home city!! Every person who is affiliated with the military or even people who move away for work will understand how hard it is to leave a place you love so much. For some its easier, either coming from military back grounds and growing up in it, or coming from little towns where there isn't much going on anyway. For me its been the hardest thing ever because I have been spoilt. And by that I mean spoilt in where I have lived and the location.

Before I moved, I lived in a beautiful little flat in Kingsquare in Bristol that had lovely Georgian windows and was a stone throw away from the city centre, and I mean a 2 minute walk! Everyday I would look out of my window and there would always be something going on. Around the corner of the square is a place called Stokes croft which is the cultural and arts hub of the City, with live music all through the day and night, late night coffee shops, amazing food, and my favourite place Co exist, which is a massive building full of creative space and art studios which is where I spend much of my time. If ever I was bored at 9pm I would walk out wrapped up and head around the corner to Boston Tea party and grab a latte and sit on my laptop or by the window and watch the world go by, or if my now husband Chris was back, then we would go and catch one of the bands playing at the Canteen (downstairs from Coexist) late at night. No need to plan, no need for a car, was literally 2 minutes walk! 
If ever I didn't have as much money I would walk to one of the many amazing art museums that the city has, then carry on museum hopping drinking hot chocolate along the way. This is what I mean by spoilt. Spoilt by the richness of such a beautiful and friendly city. It is often said that people who come to visit never leave, and this is true! People are so excepting and friendly and fun. Every month there is an event called Make Sunday Special, where the whole city center closes and has hundreds of stalls of food, creative events for children, giant painting and bands, and giant chess!! It really is amazing. 

Whilst I have been living here within a military camp, I have struggled. I am lucky however as this is one of the nicest places, people are lovely and I have made some amazing and special friends. We share a bond that people in civvi street don't understand. However though the place has access to major cities and places, it is still very 'out of the way' for my liking. The dog often takes the same walk, you have to drive everywhere, there isn't much to walk to, the village only has limited shops and other than Shrewsbury and Birmingham, the places just don't have all the things I am looking for! I feel also, and this is just a confidence thing, that I don't feel as motivated to make an effort in how I look each day. What is the point when your walking the dog around the houses and field and you work from home. I miss being able to go out to work in my studio, or even being in a place where you want to make and effort and expressing yourself through your dress is appreciated. Again it boils down to the fact I have been spoilt by my city. 

Me being me thrives and NEEDS mental and emotional stimulation. Not just by people by my surroundings. This I guess is obvious by the fact I have moved so many times to new flats and houses in 10 years(all within a 5 mile radius!) and also traveled so much. 


This is the view from my Flat in Stokes croft! I loved it there so much,




This was one of my studios at uni, and had started to migrate to Coexist during that time


Below are some photos of make sunday special event!! As you can see it is amazing!






This is at this years St Pauls Carnival


Enjoying one of the carnivals!



This below is a typical Banksy, Stokescroft and Bristol is the home of Banksy and this particular one was outside our studio window!
     




I am rambling now! This is something that has gotten me down in recent weeks and so Chris and I sat down to a compromise. Marriage is a compromise and so we needed to formulate a plan that would make all of us happy. First of all we have decided to go back to Bristol every other weekend and when Chris is away I will go down for the whole of the duration. 

We spoke about the options for the future. There is always married unaccompanied which seems to have worked for many people despite them thinking it wouldn't. Its gives the children educational and emotional stability, and sets a foundation for future family life. But I don't know and nor does Chris if we could do the whole 'goodbye on a Sunday' thing again. That was the main reason we brought our wedding forward. And at the time he wasn't injured and was away so much I hardly saw him, so by moving to camp we could be together a little more. The regiment is also very busy the next 2 years, with many exercises and the possibility of another tour, and so far we have again been lucky with Chris being home due to his injury, but that will soon be fixed and we will again be back to him being away ALOT. And I mean a lot so I will be back home a lot more anyway if that is the case. 

Another option is to look at a transfer to a corps where he can get a trade. The Royal Irish have no future posting and will be based in Shropshire for the indefinite future. So we will always believing here. For 15 years more?? I am not sure my mind could take it, I feel my mental health declining! More importantly it is an infantry regiment, there have been many losses and Chris is quite frankly lucky to even be here. After being shot at that much and constant IEDs exploding around him, finding them and them not going off non of us really understands how he got through it. Same with all the people in the regiment. Sadly some of his friends didn't make it, and further more were severely injured. It is unfortunately common place and I am not sure that we can go through the worry again. I can handle him being away a lot, I cant handle the worry of it knowing that they are not back at Bastion or in a safer place, but out in some of the worst places possible. I know it seems like I am going on about this aspect, but only to highlight it as people often say 'oh its not that bad, its ok, he isnt in that much of a dangerous job' when actually the times when he is doing what he trains to do, he is. This is the main reason for a transfer. Its safer, he is home more, and it has more career progression for future. Also we will look at corps that have postings near home and go with that. As he has infantry back ground he will promote a lot quicker. No more 6 month promotion course with no communication!

Or finally we could just stay put. In 5 years he would have done 12 years and once we find out how much the 12 pension is we can decide of to take it and return to civvi street or if its worth sticking out 15 years more then we will.

All in all we have had a weekend of looooooong discussions about it, and I wish I could just be as excepting about it all like other wives are. Yes we have more security here, cheaper housing, and the ability to be there for the children more than splash out on expensive childcare. I am sure in time we will come up with a plan and I shall keep an update, but for now we are happy just commuting to our familes every other weekend! At least until they get sick of us!!

For now I leave you with a few more home snaps!!


Below is some of my fave shops!! Mostly in around Clifton village and also the Park Street! And mostly I love the vintage shops!






we even have our own Mexican shop!



Enjoying Boston Tea party! I did all my uni work there, my dissertation and spent many hours chatting and meeting people there! often for hours on end!


and trips out to Bath!




This is round one of my old flats in Clifton village and it is beautiful and this lane leads towards the city and the city museum



Chris is OBSESSED with Only Fools and Horses and Bristol is the location of Nelson Mandela house where it was filmed!! So he had to visit!




And the garages!!



Sharing a happy time by the Clifton Suspension Bridge. I spent a lot of time there, thinking up my goals and dreams!


A little indoor/outdoor nautical theme cafe in St Nicolas Market!




View looking up to my flat!! Mine is one of the windows up there!!




And here is a lady giving out free hugs outside Boston Tea party in Clifton, this was when all the city riots happened, people kept there spirits up!




This is the little studio space inside the flat where i worked and make many many things!







Monday, 25 November 2013

22/23 WEEK UPDATE!! BELATED AGAIN!!

I have totally neglected writing!! So sorry my bad!! I am currently going through yet ANOTHER (if you knew me its all I do) work transition!! Trying to find me feet in the work places but having to except that my pregnancy is developing that the kind of work I was doing is not suitable due to being on my feet, up and down do much! So I have decided whilst on my break to finish off current projects for people and then go back to making art and exhibiting where I can. I feel like this has been the main reason why I have been so anxious and depressed and I always get low and depressed when I am not creating or making art. Truth is I miss my old studio and work and now trying to get back into the swing where I can create and make again. So starting preparations for that.

Soooo week 21 and 22 were pretty uneventful and boring, Until week 23 that is. I started to experience some bleeding after going to the toilet and rushed downstairs to my husband. I called the midwife expecting them to tell me to go back the next day but instead sent me straight to Wolverhampton Newcross hospital. I was then checked to see if there was any dilation and thankfully not!But this stage I was in bits! Turns out I have cervical ectropion which is where the cells from inside the cervix are outside. It is normal in hormonal women so it is just to be monitored. Also I had a high temp and a urinary tract infection which I was given anti biotics which made me very ill!! Other than that I have been ok. 

We have been going home a lot and that has been nice. I have really struggled with missing my home city and I will write a post about this tomorrow as I am sure many wives/girlfriends will relate. Chris and I have come to a compromise to help with this and I am glad, but will tell all tomorrow! Mean while here are some bump shoots!


How far along? 23 weeks and  4 days

Total weight gain: Not sure I recon about 8lbs. But this week I have lot a quite a bit, but that has been down to illness and too much walking!!
Maternity clothes? Same as before, but can not wear much that isnt maternity now. Maternity leggings and some tops mostly.I have some jeans but i have always HATED wearing them! My normal style if vintage/quirky  and I have not been able to dress like 'me' seeing moving here let alone being pregnant though lack of confidence to I am determined to change that!!
 Stretch marks? no 
Sleep: struggling this week with it and cant seem to get comfy and horrible reflux!
What I miss: Starting to miss my body that I used to have but also embracing the changes and my bump.
Movement: Yes plenty! Both my hubby and dad have felt kicks. I feel it when I am sat down, or lying down. Not so much when moving about.
Labor signs: no
Symptoms: Reflux that is terrible,bleeding, shortness of breath, emotional!!
Wedding rings on or off? on
Cravings: Non as such but loving lemonade!!and also savoury things more!
Food Aversions: Still hot chocolate, and recently gone of tea and started only drinking herbal tea. I have gone off a lot of things mostly sweet
Mood: I am all over the place!!One day ok and one day not so much!

Monday, 4 November 2013

20 WEEKS UPDATE!! HALF WAY THERE!!

 Sorry I not done my updates as I should!!But never mind I am back!!
So things this week and last have been great we had our 20 week scan which showed that our little boy is fine and has no issues that can be seen so far which was fab news. Until this scan I was unable to really get exited or to buy anything and was quite superstitious as well as other friends and family of mine that buying anything before this scan wasn't the best idea for us. This was just something I felt I couldn't do and I felt 'safer' this way. But now I feel that I can get buying. 

Lots of people have also looked at us like its a shame that we now know the sex. I disagree. People who know me know that I would go mad not knowing,I can now fully plan and buy things and really make a lovely nursery rather than neutral as most of the things in the shops that are neutral are not so nice like grey and white!! Also I think there is always a surprise element anyway when even meeting your baby and seeing them for the first time. Also we have seen his little ding dong twice and know for sure he is a boy!) When we have another child we probably wont find out but me being me very much NEEDED to know!!I am too much of a prepare and control freak!

I have refused to buy any new things that are small (tiny baby and newborn and some 0-3) as babies grow so quick and the cost of buying them new is insane considering how small things are!! So I raided friends houses and sales and wants of people I knew and brought lots of beautiful things at a fraction of the price and saved tons of money!!I have also started crocheting little hats and will be doing mitts soon so that have saved lots too! 

We have decided to go with the Oyster Max pram and the carrycot is £115 and he will only be in it for such a short time and we managed to buy a nearly new in black for £40!! BARGAIN!!
Also brought a beautiful moses basket of a friend (same one is £99 pounds in Mothercare)for £15! Also a highchair and breastpump. After adding up the cost of what the clothes and items would be new we have saved over £400!! I get such a buzz of it! Even if we were millionaires I would still be a superscrimper and proud!!

I have brought a couple of items new such as toys, nursery set including curtains, cot mobile, sleeping bags in the 'Happy Town' theme from Mothercare. We will be buying the pram and maxi cosi car seat new. 
I will be making a lot of things for the nursery such as a needle felted mobile, pillows, mini hot air balloons bunting and also both Chris and I will be painting a mural on the wall of clouds and fields with hot air balloons. I want it to have a vintage feel so collecting older style toys and decor (a lot in Ikea)!

Oh and this week we will be picking up our new car (Skoda Fabia TDI) and I am so exited!! We needed to as my little Clio I have had since a student and very attached too isn't suitable at all and also we really need two cars and I am passing on the Clio to my husband the lucky thing :p! So this one is a nice family friendly one with isofix and all around airbags etc large boot and it even has cruise control, aircon, mp3 and heated wing mirrors! And its super economical on fuel and is only £30 a year tax!!

These past couple of weeks I have been feeling really tired and unfortunately my physical health hasn't been the greatest (unrelated to pregnancy) I feel like I am spending most of my time in hospitals at the moment which i was used to before but having done so well to keep away for so long it seems I am back!! However it hasn't effected the pregnancy in anyway and just ongoing issues of mine that I wont go into at present but nothing major to worry about!

I have also 'popped' out this week and feeling HUGE!! I am at the stage of feeling like my sides are splitting having not eaten anything!! I am also struggling for breath at times and waddling my way upstairs already! and that Is with 4.5 more months to go!!

How far along? 20 weeks and  3 days

Total weight gain: Not sure how much but it seems to have stopped now!!I dread to think and will NOT be weighing myself for this pregnancy. People have asked why and with my digestive disorder and metabolic issues as a result of that, I feel its quite different to the type or weight gain of the average healthier person
Maternity clothes? Maternity leggings and some tops.I have some jeans but i have always HATED wearing them! My normal style if vintage/quirky  and I have not been able to dress like 'me' seeing moving here let alone being pregnant though lack of confidence to I am determined to change that!!
 Stretch marks? no 
Sleep: struggling this week with it and cant seem to get comfy!
What I miss: Starting to miss my body that I used to have but also embracing the changes and my bump
Movement: Yes alot more! We have a very active baby but now I can feel more kicks and hubby can feel them too! I feel it when I am sat down, or lying down. Not so much when moving about.
Labor signs: no
Symptoms: some cramps and pains around the belly, stretching feeling around my belly (though not my skin weirdly) shortness of breath, emotional!!
Wedding rings on or off? on
Cravings: Non as such but loving lemonade!!and also savoury things more!
Food Aversions: Still hot chocolate, and recently gone of tea and started only drinking herbal tea. I have gone off a lot of things mostly sweet
Mood: I am all over the place!!One day ok and one day not so much!

Here is the little hat I made





Monday, 21 October 2013

18 WEEK SEXING SCAN WITH 4D PEEK!!

 SO this week we went for our 18 week sexing scan which included a 4D peek!!! We have been so exited about this scan and the morning went by so slowly as the scan was at 4pm!

It was done at our usual place Babyvision in Shrewsbury. I couldn't recommend this place more as it has been the place I have gone for all my early pregnancy scans. It is a private clinic and the prices reflect the quality of the scan. Worth every penny in my opinion!

When we got in, I could see Chris's face beaming with excitement as she scanned over my belly and we saw out baby once again! It revealed a much larger baby with very long legs!!

She then went to reveal that our baby is in fact a little BOY!!! We are thrilled to bits! Chris espcially as it means he has a little Evertonian to take to the football! Though we always have referred to him as a he, part of me really did think we were having a girl, only as my mum is one of 8 girls, her sisters all have girls except 2 and it just seemed there are so many girls! I didn't care what we have as long as they are healthy and well but I wont lie I am SO glad we are having a boy. Far to many women in our family haha!! I always believe I would have a daughter but never saw myself having a son so it feels very nice.

Heart rate was down from last time 159 to 148  which she said is normal. He was wriggling around like mad which you shall see on the videos I am posting below. He is very active and making lots of lovely movements such as trying to put his thumb in his mouth though didn't seem to be able to quite do it!! Last time at 12 weeks he did put his whole had in his mouth.
Oh and another thing he did was scratch his bum, just like daddy!!haha. He is very dexterous and you can see him moving his little hands well.


Here is some 4D movements and also baby trying to put thumb in his mouth!
On the 4D peek I could really see features of Chris. His mothers side (Pye) have beautiful high cheek bones and jawline (have been the envy of mine as I hate my cheeks and I have no cheekbones what so ever!) and a lovely shaped nose, and it seems baby Mackin has the same!! He looks like his Daddy!

A lot of people have asked us if we have chosen a name. Answer is yes and no. We have a name however until we actually see what he looks like when he is born and see if the name suits him, is when we decide. Also we shall not be telling anyone until he is born and we wont be referring to him as the name we have chosen as we love the name and don't want to over say it and change our minds!! It took us ages to get to this decision!

Here is his 2D scan
As you can see he has such lovely little legs and feet..naww!
                                               
                               Here is his 4D scan, he is tucking his face away                   here, but you can again see his little feet!!


                              Here is his full face!!Definitely has the Pye family cheekbones!! He looks like Chrissie! I am worried however about the chord as it seems to be around his neck! But I am sure this is no cause for alarm as they would have said and I will just clarify it at the next scan.



And a sneaky bump pick that should really be for my 18 week update but oh well!!



Friday, 4 October 2013

❤BRIDAL MAKEUP - PART 1 - CHOOSING YOUR FOUNDATION❤

MAC FULL COVERAGE FOUNDATION REVIEW

MAC Full Coverage Foundation Review

  This is a foundation that I have been using for a long time and I Have wanted to review for a long time! I used this a while back when doing some editorial shoots and dismissed it ever since! I should NOT have!!


Click here on read on to read more.......

Thursday, 3 October 2013

THE AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL MR PATCH!!

Here are some little photos of Mr Patch outs very cute rescue Llasa Apso cross with what we think is Bichon!! He is AMAZING!!


CLICK READ MORE TO SEE MORE PICS...

OUTFIT OF THE WEEK

So finally my order that I made the other day from ASOS has arrived!! My amazing Nobbies leggings that I spoke about in my last post arrived and I have not stopped wearing them all week! So it was nice to have a change and get my new items in! 
Until now I was given some maternity items, and just brought on top and basic black leggings that I pretty much live in, and one pair on cream maternity jeans for a night I out had coming up!
 So I am happy to get my mini collections of essentials started! But other than a new maternity coat  I will try and work my normal clothes in!! So watch this space!

Here is the floral print T from new look, with the mid wash jeans that I under the bump which I find so comply, I really hate jeans at the best of times so I wouldn't mind wearing these even if I wasn't pregnant! 

And this is the outfit I wore out. It was SOO hard to find something that fit me and didnt make me look fat, and also that was suitable for the evening. This top I brought YEARS ago in Miss Selfridge after seen a pregnant friend at the time wear the pink version. But I lost so much weight in 2006 through illness, it literally didn't fit at all! It hung off me terribly and the boobs bits were like empty sacks!
 However unlike all my other clothes this top I kept as I loved it so much that I thought one day maybe I will fit into it again or get it adjusted. Deep down I think I kept it for when I got pregnant which is something I never thought would happen and now look!!!
(excuse the 'I am sober but going to pretend to be fun and drink' pose!!}

You cant see my bump so well but it hangs off nicely, You can kind of make it out here...
And these are the jeans I teamed it with from the same Maternity Jeans Line from ASOS

So I hope this is a little bit of inspiration for the week and I will be back again soon!!!




Tuesday, 1 October 2013

TIME FOR MATERNITY CLOTHES!! OUT WITH THE OLD, AND IN WITH THE NEW!!!

This week my bump has really really popped out and I decided that it really was time to just store away my old wardrobe and buy in!!

I have really struggling with finding some decent maternity leggings that are good quality and can be folded down or are under the bump, which I prefer, other than H&M and even then they are only black ones!!

I have never been one of these people just loves jeans and will only really wear them when there is an occassion or there it is cold and I am leaving the house for the whole day!!! I know seems odd but i am such a LEGGINGS girl!!

Sooooo,,, I brought some amazing jeans from ASOS such as these Elgin Mid wash underbelly Jeans which are under the bump 


I also brought this digital floral print T Shirt top that I will probably wear with a long sleeved top under neath for extra warmth in winter!!


But by far the best thing that I have seen then best purchases my grey leggings!! I have been looking EVERYWHERE for grey leggings and it just make such a contrasting different from the usual black ones!! And means that outfits can be mixed and matched so much better!

I brought them on amazing from a company in Amsterdam. Noppies Maternity Leggings are FANTASTIC quality and the best bit is that they are adjustable and so you can have them a tight or as loose as you want meaning they get bigger as your bump does. They are super warm, under the bump, come in a range of colours,  and just feel so soft and perfect! They are not the cheapest but you pay for what you get and I can tell that these are going to last a good while!

So there is my little blurb of excitement about my items coming in the post and as I type I have brought more!!YAY!!so will do a Maternity fashion parade for you soon:)





Friday, 27 September 2013

15 WEEK UPDATE!!!

SO this week has been a little bit more relaxed and I have been much less anxious than during my first trimester!! I have been really really busy with work and hospital appointments this week (nothing related to pregnancy)so I guess that has kept me from over thinking!!! 
I have been feeling ok, but one thing is that I am feeling very very FAT!!! I have always been very underweight, and always worn the same clothes for pretty much the last few years, with the odd new item here and there but things like jeans I buy, I tend to keep for a while, same with dresses and tops. I have always had to shop in H&M childrens section for trousers and jeans and worn aged 12 everytime. Even Size 8 has almost always been to big especially around the leg. So as you can imagine wearing bigger has been a massive shock!! I wanted to be more shapely but now I am starting to get a bit too shapely for my liking! My jeans are now in storage and I am in maternity but getting into my other jeans is like a distant memory and I am shocked I even ever fit into them! Bras I have never really worn just vest tops and if I do wear them I am a 32B or 30A. Now I am in 32 C/D!!!!Its so so weird for me!!I cant even explain, I like it at first then as I got bigger and bigger its just feels horrible. Kind of more puffy out and like I am swollen? However I am not really liking the weight gain around the midriff (not my bump but just above!) and really need to start thinking about packing away all my old clothes and embracing maternity clothes sooner!! I think this will make me feel better about myself, and I am sure when my bump gets bigger I will feel happier as at the moment, it is at the size where unless you know me you cant tell that easily that I am pregnant!! It is all going to be so worth it, but like most women a changing body is hard to get used to and its the sudden change that has been hard. I am not even eating any more than I was before due to my digestive issues and certainly not as much fat,(though I have just devoured many cakes at our Macmillan coffee morning!) on top of drink supplements that I am mainly having so maybe its not wonder!

As for how I have been feeling, I have been ok apart fro feeling a bit more tired and worn out quicker than before. Also on Monday I had terrible dizziness and light headedness that caused me to nearly collapse then on top of that we suspect my potassium took a nose dive again (I have chronic hypokalemia and anemia), as I was unable to hold myself up on my legs for a few hours on Tuesday, but by the time I got my bloods done I had taken extra and felt a bit better. I also got my iron checked when I suspected might have actually been ok, and I was glad that it was. Just before we moved here, my iron went down to 2 and I was given a blood transfusion, which has really helped me to build up my stores and so though at the time it wasn't great it has set me up quite well for this pregnancy. Then by Thursday morning, I feel better which was just as well as I had to travel to Birmingham for a dental hospital appointment.

When I went to the doctor she was surprised that I was only on midwife led care and has now sent me for obstetrician lead care which is what I should have been to start with. My osteopena (thinning bones)was quite severe in 2009 and then 2 more years of no periods has mean that in 2011 it progressed to some osteoporosis of the hips and though its mild, the osteopena is still there mostly in my spine and the pregnancy could cause it to get worse. Meaning that due to the weight of my baby, and the birth It could be a massive risk and in worse case break my back literally, or fracture my hips during birth. So my whole birthing plan will now have to be re assessed. It sounds drastic but its not as bad as it seems, at worse I may have to deliver slightly earlier via C section. But I will know more when I see the obstetrician.  And to be honest I was just to releaved to be able to get pregnancy and as long as my baby is health I don't mind what kind of birth I have!! But other than these new findings all seems ok)

OHHHH and I brought a dopler in the end!! I am a bit naughty with it and use it twice a day, but it keeps me calm and reassured:) It is the Angelsound one and though doesn't give a heart rate its pretty good for the money! 
Well I shall go for now, I have rambled, but will post more about the weekly shenanigans and also my husband who keeps asking 'have you written about me yet!!' So he might have to have a blurb written about him!!


How far along? 15 weeks and 0 days

Total weight gain: Defo Gained!! Not sure how much!!I dread to think and will NOT be weighing myself for this pregnancy. People have asked why and with my digestive disorder and metabolic issues as a result of that, I feel its quite different to the type or weight gain of the average healthier person
Maternity clothes? Just maternity leggings, some jeans and some tops
Stretch marks? no
Sleep: Still weird dreams and the odd wake up for a pee!
What I miss: Starting to miss my body at 11 weeks ish!:(
Movement: umm I think so? I cant work it out, feels like bubbles, and like a rolling twisty sensation kind of, i'm not sure!
Labor signs: no
Symptoms: some cramps and pains around the belly, Horribly itchy boobs and nipples, weight gain, my hair is falling out A LOT!!! Occasional dizziness.
Wedding rings on or off? on
Cravings: Non but eating more yogurt and fruit. Thats about it!!
Food Aversions: Still hot chocolate water veg like cucumber. I have gone off a lot of things
Mood: Mood is better and I feel brighter:)




Thursday, 12 September 2013

MY ART THROUGH THE YEARS

A Collection of my art work through out the years in order of Medium

Illustration and Brainstorms

Click READ more to See more...

13 WEEK UPDATE, DOWNS SYNDROME TESTS, SCAN AND BUMP PICS!

Well today was our NHS booked dating scan (yes the one I couldn't wait for hence having previous ones!) And it is also the scan in which the test for Down Syndrome is offered. For this test Blood is taken as well as some measurements from the ultra sound known as the nuchal translucency where the measurements are taken of the fluid space between the back of the neck. 

When I went in for the scan, I was very tearful. I have been like this since the start of the pregnancy, call it hormonal stress or genuine anxiety! But for some reason I was very tearful, frightened and also tired! Probably as I knew these test would take place. I was unaware that the Downs test was optional however (I am aware the Amniocentesis test is, but only after the risk chance is worked out from the NT)

The sonographer was so reassuring and lovely, however she was concerned about how I would be after my risk factors came back. She stated that many women have said to her that they wish they never took it as it only made them have very miserable pregnancies especially when the test factors came back as medium or high risk. And even then the test is never 100%. Chris and I know that really to us the test means nothing. Whatever the out come, it is our baby and we will love him him/her no matter what and if we did have a Downs baby with an extra Chromosome, then that's one more chromosome to love. Of course at our 20 week scan, we will have more test done for any abnormalities. 

She let us go out for a coffee for a short break to just think about it and also because the baby was so wriggly she could't get any good measurements!! We talked it over and is was just not a option for us to take. We went back into the room and had a lovely scan! Baby is now nearly 3 inches and was very active and wriggly. She did take the neck measurement for us just for some extra reassurance (it is the blood test she would need if we wanted the full screening)  as it showed that it is within normal range. 

I feel much more reassured and happier about this!Our dates again have changed!!Only she stated that now the dates dont change just the size of the baby!! Sooo give or take a week we are due the 21st of March not the 19th! Making me 12 weeks and 6 days!! I have included scans from the previous scan at 11ws and 5 days that dated us 12 weeks and also the scans from today that dated us 12 weeks and 6 days!!So pretty much 13 weeks!!

So here is our baby today at 12ws 6 ds

And below is 12 weeks exactly though we though I was 11 weeks plus! It is a much clearer scan or at least baby legs are much more obvious! We did see more detailed feet this time and also the the body is now watching up with the head!!

 


And here is my bump at 10 weeks and also 12/13 weeks!!Again I think there is a lot of bloating as in the morning its really small and as you can see 10 weeks its bigger!!!
 

How far along? 12 weeks and 6 days


Total weight gain: Lost 3lbs
Maternity clothes? Just maternity leggings and some tops
Stretch marks? no
Sleep: Still weird dreams and the odd wake up for a pee!
What I miss: Not much!
Movement: no
Labor signs: no
Symptoms: bloating, some cramps and pains around the belly, Horribly itchy boobs and nipples (sorry for TMI),ache or at least my skin is worse due to oils, my hair is falling out A LOT!!!
Wedding rings on or off? on
Cravings: Non but eating more yogurt and fruit. Oh I seems to like curry and find myself thinking about it...A LOT!!
Food Aversions: Still hot chocolate water veg like cucumber. I have gone off a lot of things
Mood: Mood is better 




Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...

Button you look good